29 November 2008

Posted by Jolyne | Miscellaneous on Sunday, 30 November 2008 @ 4:41 pm
29-november-2008

Back again! Have not really sorted things out yet. My head is at one place and my heart another. The problem with me is, I put my feelings aside all the time. I hide them deep down inside and try not to show it. But I guess I’m used to it now..and I try to think of it as maturely as I possibly can.

Anyway, this post is not about that, it’s a happy one. =) And dare I say that it is the happiest one. Or third happiest one as the other two are yet to come. 29 November 2008. I will remember this day for the rest of my life as I am made the happiest girl in the world. =) No prizes for guessing!! =P It’s a long long long story that will be posted NEXT. haha….sorry to ruin the surprise but I just need to wait for the pictures! I figured we should get back on track in this website again because WS is not paying godaddy.com for nothing!! So, stay tuned for more post, especially the next one as you wouldn’t want to miss it for the world, I know I wouldn’t!!! Cheers~

WHYYYYYYYYY????

Posted by Jolyne | Miscellaneous on Thursday, 13 November 2008 @ 2:15 pm
whyyyyyyyyy

I am back…….kinda….not really as the same person when i left. It has only been what? 2 months? It is scary what this can do to me. I feel angry……mostly at the world…but really…at myself. For failing. For even bothering. Why did I give myself hope when I knew I was destined to fail? Why waste the money that could have been spent on other things or saved? Why put my dreams out there only to discorver it as a nightmare at the end? Why the fuck is this happening to me? I feel so angry inside that I want to do soemthing bad. Sounds so wrong I know. But i’m tired. Tired of always being good. Being good but failing miserably. Life is so damn bloody unfair. Why should I offer my seat to some old lady i don’t even know? Why should I guide the blind man to the post box? Why should I help the scryffy old man on the tube who is struggling to open a packet of biscuits while everyone was just staring? Why should I when I don’t get any help at all?? Sounds selfish…but WHY SHOULDN’T I BE??????? Why why why? ARGHHHHH….sigh…don’t want to think or talk about it. Don’t want any bloody consolation either. Simply because no one will fucking understand what I am feeling now. NO ONE. You may think you do…but you clearly dont and never will. Bye….need to sort my head and heart out………..